Feelin’ the Need

So I’m sitting at work with less than an hour to go until I’m off and I don’t really want to start on a new project. If I do, I will just be tempted to stay later and finish it or leave it halfway done which I will end up regretting in the morning. What am I going to do then for my last 30 minutes? Well blog of course!

So over the weekend I went to Teavana in the mall because I am currently on this tea kick. And when I get on kicks like these they tend to be obsessions. I’m talking can’t leave the store without buying a different kind of tea. Soooo… coincidentally, I went to buy more tea. Being new to this whole tea thing and never having shopped there before I was a little overwhelmed. I know, I know, how overwhelmed can you get shopping for tea? Well lemme tell ya how the trip went down.

I walked in and told the salesperson I wanted to try some tea. He was very nice and had me try all their sample teas. I absolutely loved two of them and really struggled deciding what I wanted to get. So while I was contemplating he passed me off to another sales person who would be the one who checked me out. I explained to her I had never been there (huge mistake because then she proceeded to try and sell me everything!) and asked what the rate was on their tea. She told me that it was sold by the pound and I thought to myself “OK, a pound of tea will last me quite a while.” I told her the flavor I wanted and that I would take a pound, thinking it was the bare minimum. Boy was I wrong. When she told me my total was $110 I about flipped. I was not expecting to spend $100 on tea, which I proceeded to tell her. She then told me that I would at least have to get a 2 oz. minimum and that the rates were based on ounces, (wouldn’t that have been nice to know from the beginning, especially because one was $12/2oz.). So I told her that I would take the 2 oz minimum to begin with and went on my way. Still spending more than I had expected ($36 to be exact). Since this tea is “high quality,” it of course is loose leaf meaning no bag. I had planned on buying a tea infuser while at the mall but never got around to it since that day seemed to drag on forever. But, while I was on the computer the next day I ordered one off amazon for real cheap. AND it should be waiting for me on my door step when I get home!! WOOT WOOT! I am super excited to finally get to have a glass of this expensive ass tea I bought this weekend. I am hoping that it is just as good as it was in the store. 

Since this is probably the most exciting thing that will be happening for me today, I am going to use it to reward myself after completing my workout because today is PURE CARDIO and CARDIO ABS on insanity! I really have started to slack off because I’m not seeing results as quickly as I want (like overnight, HA!). But I am starting to think it’s not my workouts that is killing me and that it is my diet. I eat really healthy but I don’t think its what my body needs. Rarely do I get enough protein in a day because I never stray from fruits and veggies with the occasional turkey sandwich. When I think back to last years weight loss journey I was constantly eating high protein foods (peanut butter, eggs, chicken, etc.) and it was helping my body rebuild. 

Something I also did differently last year was working out early in the morning. I used to not have a problem getting up at 6am to go for a run. Now it almost kills me to, but it’s something I want to work on. I always felt refreshed throughout the day because I kickstarted my day and I know it just is a habit I need to start back up but it’s tough! Especially when sleep in your Best Friend. I am hoping that by making these minor changes I’ll start to see a difference in how I feel and my body! 

 

Inner Fat Girl

OMG!!

This weekend was horrendous just as planned! I had hoped that by preparing myself for such a horrible weekend I would be over conscious of my diet choices, but I was definitely not! Saturday wasn’t a bad day at all since I was in my usual routine. However, Sunday the trip to the mall occurred and let me tell ya, was definitely tight on my belt!

I started the morning off good knowing that we’d be at the mall all day I packed a sandwich and brought it along. I figured I’d eat it right before we went inside and I wouldn’t be hungry until we left. Boy was I wrong. I ate the sandwich before we even got to the mall. My tummy was grumbling and I needed to eat something. So I did. Unplanned, we met up with my family and within 20 minutes of walking into the mall my dad had hit up Auntie Annes for pretzels. I devoured them. I hadn’t eaten something that sweet (cinnamon sugar pretzels) in a while and it felt like I was a crack addict relapsing. But it gets worse. My dad for father’s day only wanted one thing. GOLDEN CORRAL! First off, they are known for a chocolate fountain which I knew would be too hard to pass up. Secondly, the possibilities were endless. When we walked in I knew it was going to be bad. I was hungry so my eyes were bigger than my stomach, and I literally felt like I had died and gone to heaven. Pshh… and realistically in who’s version of Heaven do you have to diet? 

So my journey through the buffet began. The first thing I picked up were hush puppies. I moved on then to mac and cheese, sweet potato casserole, and then I landed on the rolls. Ohhh sweet lawd the warm toasted heaping rolls. (When I mentioned a crack addict relapsing, I am the equivalent only with CARBS!). I ate rice and then decided some protein would be nice. Where did I go then? To the popcorn shrimp. I devoured that first plate. I knew I should have stopped but I hadn’t even hit the dessert bar yet! So on my walk up to there I stopped for some mashed potatoes, and you guessed it… another ROLL! Added a cupcake, small piece of fudge, cotton candy, and two scoops of my favorite ice cream MINT CHOCOLATE CHIP! Now at this point, I’m about to explode so this plate didn’t go as quickly. I took about two bites out of everything except the ice cream and roll. While sitting there looking at my family still eating I couldn’t help but begin to regret my decisions. I felt sick, bloated, and most of all GUILTY! I told myself I was going to go straight home and run– I knew though the chances of my going out for a run were about as small as my pants felt at the moment. I had an hourish drive home and knew all those starches were going to put me to sleep. 

When we finally got home the first thing my fiance and myself did was walk our dogs. They had been locked in the kennel for nearly the whole day and needed to get some energy out of their systems and I knew I needed to burn some of those unwanted calories because I had just bought some nice new pants that I needed to fit into for work the next day! We took them on a longer walk than usual and I started to feel better because I was up moving. By the time we got home it was going on 10:00 and I was exhausted–shopping does that to me (well I guess so does eating a shit ton at Golden Corral). I knew I was done for the day and went straight to bed. When I woke up this morning I was STILL full. I felt disgusting. I knew I needed to eat something before work or else I’d be starving by lunchtime so I ate a small bowl of fruit (no protein), which I’m regretting now. I was debating on even packing a lunch since I foresaw myself not being hungry at all, but I went ahead and packed leftover tuna, grapes and pita chips. Before I left for work I checked what my scheduled Insanity workout was for the day and saw it was only the fit test (which isn’t near as fast paced as the other workouts). This bummed me out because I know I’m going to need something quicker to make myself feel better about this weekends decisions. Especially in regards to my last post, I didn’t even get my yoga in for the day off. 😦 When I get off work I am going straight into my Insanity workout and plan on doing two sections of it and going for a run tonight! I understand  it’s ok to have a bad day but if this is how I’m going to feel after each bad day I want to stay on track as much as possible. 

To celebrate a small victory and to not end this post so negatively, I noticed Saturday (my last day of Insanity), I was on day 13 out of 63! This is the farthest I have been into the program! I’m really hoping to get all the way through it this time and stay on task! My goal for after work is to jump right on Insanity, do the two sets (my scheduled fit test and I’m debating either pure cardio or pylometric circuit) and reward myself with a nap or relaxation on the couch since it’s a rainy day and that’s all I’ve wanted to do ALL DAY. Hopefully, I can get back on track (so far so good) and stay motivated because I typically fall off after having a bad time. 

I need to remember that the only thing holding me back is myself and that I can do anything if I want it bad enough! 

 

Hump Day!

Here we are, halfway through the week and still going strong. I’ve noticed I may go about a day without posting and then feel the need to jump back on before my decisions start to go awry. Yesterday was a good day. Currently I’m interning at my alma mater and helping with Orientations for incoming freshmen so the days are packed full and tend to be busier than when the orientations aren’t going on. This helps me not sit at think about how hungry I am or when my next meal/snack is. I catch myself doing this a lot when I have idle time just because I love the taste of food and am TRULY addicted. I am definitely one of those boredom eaters. 

As for my workouts, I haven’t been going as hard as I was the past week because I could feel myself getting burnt out. Typically, I would do my insanity and then go to the gym and run another 45+ minutes. This was on top of me riding my bike everywhere, walking the dogs, going to play tennis, etc. I was constantly moving and never really “relaxing.” I was beginning to obsess which is unhealthy for me. If I got to the point where I obsessed too much I would fall into a downward spiral and beat myself up too much. So I took a break from the running. I would do my insanity each day along with our dog walking and other activities. Yesterday I was actually craving going on a run which before was not the case. Before, it felt more like a meeting I had to attend even if I was dirt tired. Since I had this craving, I figured why not indulge? So, I went to the gym and ran. Even though it wasn’t my usual long run, I ran a good fast paced 2 miles and then decided to bike. It felt nice to not be upset with myself if I pooped out on those last 15 minutes. I ran faster for a shorter period of time and felt just as good afterwards than any other run. 

I also found out that whole foods has an app yesterday and downloaded that to see what it is all about. Although there aren’t any within a hour drive from us I still was excited and hope to find some of the ingredients to make the recipes at our local grocery stores. If not I’ll have to make a stop next time I’m at home! 

I’m feeling good and we’re halfway through the week. I am hoping the good vibes continue on and that everyone else has a good Wednesday!!