OMG!!
This weekend was horrendous just as planned! I had hoped that by preparing myself for such a horrible weekend I would be over conscious of my diet choices, but I was definitely not! Saturday wasn’t a bad day at all since I was in my usual routine. However, Sunday the trip to the mall occurred and let me tell ya, was definitely tight on my belt!
I started the morning off good knowing that we’d be at the mall all day I packed a sandwich and brought it along. I figured I’d eat it right before we went inside and I wouldn’t be hungry until we left. Boy was I wrong. I ate the sandwich before we even got to the mall. My tummy was grumbling and I needed to eat something. So I did. Unplanned, we met up with my family and within 20 minutes of walking into the mall my dad had hit up Auntie Annes for pretzels. I devoured them. I hadn’t eaten something that sweet (cinnamon sugar pretzels) in a while and it felt like I was a crack addict relapsing. But it gets worse. My dad for father’s day only wanted one thing. GOLDEN CORRAL! First off, they are known for a chocolate fountain which I knew would be too hard to pass up. Secondly, the possibilities were endless. When we walked in I knew it was going to be bad. I was hungry so my eyes were bigger than my stomach, and I literally felt like I had died and gone to heaven. Pshh… and realistically in who’s version of Heaven do you have to diet?
So my journey through the buffet began. The first thing I picked up were hush puppies. I moved on then to mac and cheese, sweet potato casserole, and then I landed on the rolls. Ohhh sweet lawd the warm toasted heaping rolls. (When I mentioned a crack addict relapsing, I am the equivalent only with CARBS!). I ate rice and then decided some protein would be nice. Where did I go then? To the popcorn shrimp. I devoured that first plate. I knew I should have stopped but I hadn’t even hit the dessert bar yet! So on my walk up to there I stopped for some mashed potatoes, and you guessed it… another ROLL! Added a cupcake, small piece of fudge, cotton candy, and two scoops of my favorite ice cream MINT CHOCOLATE CHIP! Now at this point, I’m about to explode so this plate didn’t go as quickly. I took about two bites out of everything except the ice cream and roll. While sitting there looking at my family still eating I couldn’t help but begin to regret my decisions. I felt sick, bloated, and most of all GUILTY! I told myself I was going to go straight home and run– I knew though the chances of my going out for a run were about as small as my pants felt at the moment. I had an hourish drive home and knew all those starches were going to put me to sleep.
When we finally got home the first thing my fiance and myself did was walk our dogs. They had been locked in the kennel for nearly the whole day and needed to get some energy out of their systems and I knew I needed to burn some of those unwanted calories because I had just bought some nice new pants that I needed to fit into for work the next day! We took them on a longer walk than usual and I started to feel better because I was up moving. By the time we got home it was going on 10:00 and I was exhausted–shopping does that to me (well I guess so does eating a shit ton at Golden Corral). I knew I was done for the day and went straight to bed. When I woke up this morning I was STILL full. I felt disgusting. I knew I needed to eat something before work or else I’d be starving by lunchtime so I ate a small bowl of fruit (no protein), which I’m regretting now. I was debating on even packing a lunch since I foresaw myself not being hungry at all, but I went ahead and packed leftover tuna, grapes and pita chips. Before I left for work I checked what my scheduled Insanity workout was for the day and saw it was only the fit test (which isn’t near as fast paced as the other workouts). This bummed me out because I know I’m going to need something quicker to make myself feel better about this weekends decisions. Especially in regards to my last post, I didn’t even get my yoga in for the day off. 😦 When I get off work I am going straight into my Insanity workout and plan on doing two sections of it and going for a run tonight! I understand it’s ok to have a bad day but if this is how I’m going to feel after each bad day I want to stay on track as much as possible.
To celebrate a small victory and to not end this post so negatively, I noticed Saturday (my last day of Insanity), I was on day 13 out of 63! This is the farthest I have been into the program! I’m really hoping to get all the way through it this time and stay on task! My goal for after work is to jump right on Insanity, do the two sets (my scheduled fit test and I’m debating either pure cardio or pylometric circuit) and reward myself with a nap or relaxation on the couch since it’s a rainy day and that’s all I’ve wanted to do ALL DAY. Hopefully, I can get back on track (so far so good) and stay motivated because I typically fall off after having a bad time.
I need to remember that the only thing holding me back is myself and that I can do anything if I want it bad enough!